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Patti Smith pens essay explaining why she botched her Bob Dylan Nobel Prize performance

on December 15, 2016, 11:21am

Patti Smith appeared at the Nobel Prize Award Ceremony in Stockholm last weekend, where she honored Bob Dylan by covering “A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall”. (Dylan, as we all know, was not in attendance due to a scheduling conflict.) During her performance, Smith mistakenly repeated a line, for which she later apologized.

Now, in a poetic new essay for The New Yorker, Smith writes about the experience of playing at such a prestigious event, in celebration of such a prestigious figure, and how her nerves got the best of her that day. Smith says she had been asked to perform at the ceremony prior to knowing that Dylan would be awarded the Nobel Prize for Literature. Upon the announcement, it was then that she — a longtime fan and colleague of Dylan — became overcome with “conflicting emotions” and began spending “every spare moment” perfecting the cover in preparation:

“But when it was announced that Bob Dylan had won the prize and accepted, it seemed no longer fitting for me to sing my own song. I found myself in an unanticipated situation, and had conflicting emotions. In his absence, was I qualified for this task? Would this displease Bob Dylan, whom I would never desire to displease? But, having committed myself and weighing everything, I chose to sing ‘A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall’, a song I have loved since I was a teen-ager, and a favorite of my late husband.

From that moment, every spare moment was spent practicing it, making certain that I knew and could convey every line. Having my own blue-eyed son, I sang the words to myself, over and over, in the original key, with pleasure and resolve. I had it in my mind to sing the song exactly as it was written and as well as I was capable of doing. I bought a new suit, I trimmed my hair, and felt that I was ready.”

On the morning of the ceremony, she was anxious yet confident about the performance. However, when it came time to take the stage, again, she was “struck with a plethora of emotions, avalanching with such intensity that I was unable to negotiate them.” Regarding the lyrics that she bungled, Smith says, “I hadn’t forgotten the words that were now a part of me. I was simply unable to draw them out,” what she describes as a “strange phenomenon”:

“The opening chords of the song were introduced, and I heard myself singing. The first verse was passable, a bit shaky, but I was certain I would settle. But instead I was struck with a plethora of emotions, avalanching with such intensity that I was unable to negotiate them. From the corner of my eye, I could see the the huge boom stand of the television camera, and all the dignitaries upon the stage and the people beyond. Unaccustomed to such an overwhelming case of nerves, I was unable to continue. I hadn’t forgotten the words that were now a part of me. I was simply unable to draw them out.

This strange phenomenon did not diminish or pass but stayed cruelly with me. I was obliged to stop and ask pardon and then attempt again while in this state and sang with all my being, yet still stumbling. It was not lost on me that the narrative of the song begins with the words ‘I stumbled alongside of twelve misty mountains,’ and ends with the line ‘And I’ll know my song well before I start singing.’ As I took my seat, I felt the humiliating sting of failure, but also the strange realization that I had somehow entered and truly lived the world of the lyrics.”

Despite the momentary hiccup, Smith proceeded to finish her cover in poignant fashion. Her earnest apology for being so nervous was also met with applause from the crowd. Read her full essay here; below, revisit her performance.