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IAN SWEET offers Track By Track breakdown of emotional new album, Crush Crusher: Stream

on October 18, 2018, 11:45am

Track by Track is a new music feature in which we task an artist with sharing the influences and stories behind each song on their latest release.

IAN SWEET began as the solo project of songwriter Jilian Medford before blossoming into a three-piece with the creation of 2016’s Shapeshifter. Now, two years and a move to Los Angeles later, Medford has again taken the CoSigned project solo. It makes sense, as her new tunes lodge intensely personal themes regarding beauty, self-worth, and, perhaps most strikingly, the weight of responsibility that comes with sacrificing your own well-being to become a caretaker for those in your orbit.

Medford recorded IAN SWEET’s new album, Crush Crusher, with Gabe Wax, a producer and engineer with a history of working with ambitious, envelope-pushing acts like Deerhunter and Soccer Mommy. “Coming into a space where some of my biggest inspirations like Bjork, Dirty Projectors, and Deerhunter had all once also recorded, I felt determined to push myself and test every boundary that I may have subconsciously created along the way,” Medford says in a press release. “Gabe made me feel comfortable with attempting anything.”

Comfort, the kind born from confidence, pervades Crush Crusher, even as the songs themselves grapple with insecurity. Medford’s stirring vocals lead the way, the arrangements sprawling and flexing in tune to the tender pleas of “Bug Museum”, her ferocious wail on “Falling Fruit”, or the teasing verses of “Ugly/Bored”, which contains the compelling refrain “I forgot, did I ever ask what you thought about the day we fucked in the parking lot?” Several of the tracks, from “Holographic Jesus” to “Borrowed Body”, run emotional and sonic gambits, with moments of simmering vulnerability boiling over into a rush of loud, shoegazing catharsis.

Crush Crusher is officially out on October 26th via Hardly Art, but you can stream it in full right now. Check it out below.

For more on the album’s background, Medford has taken us through each song on the album Track by Track.

“Hiding”: 
“Hiding” is a song I wrote for myself to be reminded to never get consumed with anything to the point of forgetting about my own needs. This song is a projection of a sanctuary in which I feel safe and strong in my own desires. It is something I long for, to be confident in the things that make me, me. The song opens with convincing myself that it is okay to hide/shy away from situations, when really I should never have to convince myself of anything other than what, just…feels good. This is my admittance to losing and forgetting something to someone else, but demanding to take it back.

To be very literal this song is about the previous drummer of IAN SWEET and how I felt lost in his misogynistic approach towards how I should play music/conduct myself as a female musician.

“Spit”: 
Writing “SPIT” felt like casting a spell. The song is a premonition of a breakup… and reflecting on how I rarely let myself enjoy things in the moment because I tend to latch on to the impending doom of them.

“Holographic Jesus”:
While living in Brooklyn for two years I started collecting Holographic Jesus posters from 99cent stores in the neighborhood. I hung them up all over my room and wrote this song about the way I felt over the course of those two years, the things that happened in that bedroom, the people that came in and out of my life and how they affected me… all while being “watched over” by these inanimate objects.

“Bug Museum”:
“Bug Museum” is the feeling of being fossilized/ frozen by someone or something. Maybe even put on display for everyone to see. The song feels like a conversation i’m having with myself. Scolding myself for not learning from the things that have caused me anguish.

“Question It”: 
This song is about the inconsistencies of a toxic relationship. The constant questioning, reckoning, accepting and liberation from emotionally abusive behavior.

“Crush Crusher”: 
“Crush Crusher” is a song about crushing the optimistic moments. Not letting myself get too excited over a thought or idea because of the crashing and crushing comedown. This song and the title of the record do not mean “crush” as in having a “crush” on someone but rather the idea of crushing something that seems bright or exciting on the horizon for the sake of saving myself from further hurt down the line.

“Falling Fruit”:
The rotten fruit that has been left on the ground for days/weeks and wondering when someone will come and find you/eat you/care for you/make you into a pie… etc. After long enough… you accept your fate and let yourself rot away.

IAN SWEET - Crush Crusher _ Album Art

“Borrowed Body”:
Letting someone put the burden of their feelings on you so they can sleep better at night. I was in a relationship where someone would unload much of their issues onto me and then quickly get over them..after I got heavily emotionally invested in the situation because of how much I cared about their well being. It felt as if I was left with their load and they had been wiped clean of it. I became a vessel… a borrowed body

“Ugly/Bored”:
Feeling insecure in a relationship. Harping on things like image. Constantly beating myself over being “ideal.” Wanting to create a space for myself to be able to say that sometime I think I’m ugly and I think I’m boring. But then sometimes finding the confidence to say I’m fucking beautiful and incredibly interesting. It is okay to fluctuate with self image and self awareness, you don’t alway need to be feeling on TOP to be secure with yourself and know who you are.

“Your Arms Are Water”: 
A song about watching someone you love constantly drowning/struggling to stay afloat from their own depression and insecurities. Not making any room for anyone to love them FULLY. As someone who proactively is trying to take care of myself, after so much struggle and resistance to get help, it is hard to watch and try to accept that you can not force anyone to lead a healthier life. Over the last year this has happened with my previous drummer and a partner. It felt like I was losing myself in the people I cared about the most. Losing myself in the process and feeling unsure who I was to them or what role I was really playing. When I wrote this song I was accepting how beautiful these relationships were but how toxic they had become.

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